It is there, in the midst of trying to find a way through the darkness and the doubting of ever being in the light again. It is there, in the tears spilling down the cheeks and the weight heavy on a chest in the middle of the night. It is there, in the crushing feeling of discouragement weaving into your soul and in the hurt echoing loud in your soul. It is there, in the pain woven into your bones and the confusion mudding the whole circumstance. It is there, in the mess of the relationships lost and in the brokenness of losing our loved ones. It is there, in the permanent scars and in your world falling completely apart.
It is there, the questioning and hard doubting: Lord, where are You in this? How can there be any purpose in any of this?
This fallen world, these impossible circumstances and broken people — I find myself questioning. I am desperately searching for answers, to understand what God is accomplishing through these hard moments that are breaking me. The weariness settles into my bones when I cannot find any answers, tears come down as waterfalls when I confess to the Lord, and to others, that my faith is weak.
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:16-18)
But it is there, the still small voice speaking in the midst of the impossible and the difficult. Do not lose heart, beloved.
This present trial, these hard circumstances and messy hearts — they are here but for a moment. This will not last forever. Even more so, they are working for us a glory that is brighter, more amazing and this will last forever. So fix your eyes on the things unseen. Still your heart before Him, my friend, and lay down your heart. Lay down your hurt. Surrender your all to the Maker of your heart, knowing that His are gentle hands and they are holding your heart together. Look at the things which are not seen, listen to the voice of Truth that echoes bright in your heart for that small moment.
It is all working out for eternity.